Time management is my achilles heel.
I struggle with it, always have struggled with it.
I’m frustrated that I don’t have enough time to do what I want to do (write fiction) yet thankful that I can make a living doing what I do (write nonfiction)!
It’s the proverbial grass is greener on the other side thing.
Do I think the grass is greener on the ‘fiction’ side of life?
Oh yeah…sure do. I mean, how fun is it to sit in a room and make stuff up?
Of course, the comfort level I’ve got with nonfiction is waaayyy more than that of fiction, so maybe that’s why I get bored so easily with nonfiction?
Or is it the fact that I simply haven’t found my niche?
I used to think I wanted to write about politics. I was always intensely fascinated with the subject, but the older I’ve gotten and the more things I’ve learned about how politics are “really” done…not to mention the real ‘power players’ puppeting everyone, the more I know it really doesn’t make any difference who is “in control”.
It’s all just “kabuki theater”, “bread and circuses” designed to entertain the “masses”.
Whom, I might add, need to really WAKE THE FLOCK UP!
See my dilemma?
It’s frustrating, knowing that while some people may know “what’s really going on”, so many are blinded by the god of this world.
Frustrating to no end.
But, I also know that He who is within me (and I in Him) is greater than he who is in this world.
So…to that end I’ll continue trying to learn what it is to walk in God’s Grace (His power) and let Him work through me…speaking to those who will hear what He has to say and doing my best to be a clean vessel for Him so that all will see and give Him the glory!
Besides…I have a deep and abiding love for His Bride. I know that He is just starting to clean her up right now, but as the cliche’ goes, “we [sic] ain’t seen nothin’ yet” so the more I can help Him clean me up through obedience to His voice the less painful it will be, am I right? 😉